#Not saying it will ever come to it
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ml i need to yap to you so bad omg like you have no idea
i have so much to share with you
aaaaaaa so many thoughts, head fulllll🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
ALRIGHT FIRST- i got a bf🥰
I SWEAR HES THE SWEETEST GUY IVE EVER MET
HES ALWAYS HYPING ME UP AND I LOVE HIM SM
ALSO-
HE CALLS ME ANGELLLL
AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AWWWW THATS SO CUTE 🥰
I’m so happy for you Larz :D
#Not saying it will ever come to it#But if it does#i have a sword if needed#ain’t takin ANY chances when it comes to wifey 🗡️ 😤
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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oh sweetheart...
#pokemon#giratina#arceus#poke mythos#anthro#reconciliation? whos to say it ever comes#giratina pressing its head into arceus' hands like a touch hungry dog. poor thing#arceus is lamenting mistakes here. can it have its child back? can this work? can we start again?#NOT SHIP i thought i did not need to say this
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if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing
#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate.#you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you#think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth.#then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty#house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive#this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died.#and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first#place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever#given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and#you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's#everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you#have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love#more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me.#real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you.#and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love.#lit#the hunger games#everlark#otp: real or not real?#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#text#tais toi lys#thgpost
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Thinking about DP x DC Jason Todd being a revenant again. Here's my scenario. Jason gets called that by some ghost. He's like "what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" He's heard the term before but he doesn't know any actual lore. He googles it. He scrolls past the Leonardo DiCaprio bear movie. He opens the wiki. Sees the words "animated corpse" and gets a chill diwn his spine. He starts reading the first section.
He closes Wikipedia.
That night he has a nightmare that his family buried him, again, this time with precautions. He wakes up in his own grave, full of stones, too heavy to move, to scream.
#CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS#like reading this section in the context of jason is SO HORRIFYING#the idea of someone knowing it was possible for him to come back. to wake up down there. and wanting to keep him there#stay dead. we want you dead. you're too troublesome alive. you're meant to be down there.#so anyways. jason internalizing all this shit and feeling uncomfortable in his own body because he's thinking of it as a corpse#and of himself as haunting a place he doesn't belong#and then meeting danny and danny says 'wow you're a revenant aren't you! The dead so restless they can't bear to stay in their graves'#and he smiles. 'You're amazing. Your will is so strong'#and the Ghost King tells Jason 'You're alive but that doesn't mean you aren't one of mine. I will come for you'#and batman says 'we will keep you safe from that entity and his threats. you don't belong to him'#and jason says 'he didn't mean i was his possession. he said i was his responsibility. he said he would help me if i ever needed him'#and bruce sees the faraway look in his son's eyes and doesn't know what to say#okay I'm done#for now#dp x dc#dpxdc#revenant jason todd#danny phantom#dc#batfam#jason todd#my rambles#my writing
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the most realistic part of gravity falls was how dipper and mabel fight but specifically the "meow meow meow meow meow meow meow!!!" mabel shouts at dipper. i know this because i'm an older sister and we have gotten into so many fights where i just said complete nonsense at my baby brother and he loses his absolute shit. one time we were at a chili's and fighting about who knows what and i just glared at him and said "HOT. SAUCE." and he leapt over the table to try and kill me
#gravity falls#the most realistic sibling dynamics i've ever seen ever#“hot sauce” was banned from the household so we had to say “the spicy liquid” for a few months#because it'd trigger another fight#“mother i would like the spicy liquid” was also banned#at some point we bonded over trying to come up with alternatives until my mother realized we had ganged up on her#psychological warfare was our favorite weapon in our household#erinwantstowrite
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*Teleports behind you* Nothing personal, kids.
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
EXTRA
#undertale#deltarune#utdr#crossover#undertale fanart#deltarune fanart#twin runes comic#twin runes#twin runes au#my art#comic#kris dreemurr#frisk#and as soon as they seemingly got rid of the red guy there's now a yellow person#a pretty beig one at that#I wonder if that's the priestess every darkner has at least mentioned once#wait...#trial... yellow... is this a justice soul reference?#yes#yes it is#but enough about that#kris doesn't want to say goodbye to frisk#my heart...#they've come such a long way#THEY'RE THE SIBLINGS EVER *sobs*
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Lokius commission for @uf-oh's fanfiction "i look up at the gaps of sunlight (i miss you more than anything)" ⭐
#I had such a blast working on this#how could I ever say no to drawing lokius fishing#lokius I miss you so much#come back to me#big thanks to meagan for making me draw these two again#loki#loki fanart#mobius fanart#lokius#lokius fanart#loki and mobius#digital art#commission#my art
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#I was watching a bad movie with my sister and turns out my tolerance for movies that are bad is exceptionally high#like yea sure it was bad but#she said she cant mentally comprehend how something as bad can exist#babie#youre young. youll come across so many shitter movies than this#trust me#david tennant#mads mikkelsen#cary elwes#id say scott bakula but i think im the only one there#david duchovny#too oh hell#insert literally any actor ever
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What if Kieran caught Pecharunt?
#pokemon#pecharunt#kieran#the teal mask#mochi mayhem#quikyu artiste#Part 2 coming in the near or far future or never at all. It depends#that bottomest doodle is probably the prettiest I've ever drawn him#i meant to say 'bottom most' forgive me I'm like half asleep
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new group activity: period cramp transferring (based off convo with @cyanvalour)
#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava#animation vs minecraft#avm#ava victim#ava tdl#ava tco#ava tsc#avm tsc#ava red#avm red#ava yellow#avm yellow#ava green#avm green#ava blue#avm blue#avm purple#avm king orange#avm orchid#avm gold#AUUUGH THE TAGS... AUGH#this is so dumb HELP#orchids transferring doesnt count since shes dead btw. shes doing it for fun while gold stands there confused#“lilac why the fuck do they all have periods” shut up /silly#updating tags to say that another friend mentioned saisk's alan apotheosis au and good lird the thought of that au being put into this art#ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING#saisk if you ever somehow manage to come across this post im terribly sorry#lilacsart
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Burning Rotten Bridges
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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✨Buck's baggage✨
#don't talk to me or my son or his self worth issues or his self worth issues or his self worth issues or his self worth issues ever again#he is so special to me!!!!!!!!#to whoever is saying he's baggage free now post coming out you are so weird forever. and so is he. sorry.#okay going to sleep#tv: 911#911 abc#911 fox#911edit#911gifs#tvedit#buck buckley#evan buckley#tvgifs#televisiongifs#mythtakensgif#cinemapix#dailyflicks
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Hope this hasn't been done before 😔✌️
Twitter | Ko-FI
#ghostsoap#goap#ghost soap#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#cod#call of duty#I don't recall ever seeing this meme with them and come on it's perfect#I understand that I was very generous with Soap's ass but what can I say#butt fun to draw#also no reason they're in their las almas outfit other than Soap has a nice ass in this outfit so I went with that#my art#mw2
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COWBOYSSSS YIPPEEEEE
#rassfanart#fanart#twst#twisted wonderland#idikei#idia shroud#cater diamond#I have alot of things to say but I am far too tired so I'm just gonna leave it at this AHAHAA#Me when I can't shut the fuck up ever when it comes to these two OKAY now I shut up BYE
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I wholeheartedly believe that the last thing that should be said in response to aspecs hating their identity is "don't worry! Aspecs can still do X, Y, and Z" and I'm so fucking serious about this.
The least helpful thing you can do to someone who have not accepted their aspec identity yet is give them ways to compensate for it. If an aspec person is upset over not being able to enter a romantic relationship, the last thing that should be done is to tell them they can still enter one or instead enter a QPR - not because that's not true but because that is quite literally going to stunt their ability to accept their aspec identity. Telling them they can instead enter a QPR when they're upset over the lack of romantic relationships is at MOST a bandaid for the main issue. Instead of them coming to accept their identity and accept who they are you have instead handed them an amatonormative alternative on a silver platter that allows them to pretend they still fit into amatonormativity without every deconstructing it. This is how we get QPRs getting shoved into an amatonormative framework - these people NEVER got over the "I'm sad that I'm aspec" phase because they were handed alternatives instead of given actual support in deconstructing their internalized aphobia, self hatred, and amatonormative biases.
#text#aspec#aro#aromantic#ace#asexual#aroace#I'm not saying that bringing up the fact that aspecs can still interact in certain ways to be Bad or Wrong btw#I'm not saying we shouldn't talk about how some aspecs have sex or some have partnerships or whatever#but more just that the only response to people complaining about certain issues shouldn't only be “Oh but you can do x”#someone who is mourning the fact they dont fit into amatonormativity shouldn't be told “oh but you can fit into amatonormativity”#Like idk maybe there should be a discussion about how many people use favorability and partnering to avoid properly healing?#maybe there should be a discussion about how often people only accept aspec identities based on how closely they fit amatonormativity?#maybe there is a discussion about how other aspecs play into that and never actually leave their “sad to be aspec” phase#the fact so many can only “accept” their aspec identity when they are told that they can still partake in amatonormativity#like idk i feel like discussions can be had here and i think these sorts of discussions need to be had#especially if we ever want to be on the same page when it comes to dismantling amatonormativity
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